Monday, 29 October 2007

Music

Last request-Paulo Nutini. That is a song you have to listen to.

It breathes. All music breathes.
But this one, makes you breathe with it.

Words don't come easy now.
I hope you know what this means.
What the sound of the song means. Listen to it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nFrKBrlZYPY

"Grant this last request,
And just let me hold you,
Don't shrug your shoulders,
Lay down beside me.
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere,
But one last time just go there,
Lay down beside me."

Saturday, 27 October 2007

Poetry For Thought

Title: Dreaming

Its November again,
Years go by, days feel lost.
Mechanical chores everyday,
Dreams of your smile every night.
Sorrow gazes through your dreamy eyes,
Are you really gone??
In my dreams you play with the wind and
Dance to the rain, are you still gone??

Lets pick cherries from the sky,
And roses from the sea.
While we swim through our dreams,
And soar above our faith.
The winds brings chocolates and pearls,
Pearls to wish upon and a smile to follow.
Fishes fly and whisper secrets of yesterday,
Lets listen some more, lets be here.

Its just dreams now,
Sleep induced, and memories alive.
It was the hardest pain, losing you,
Not saying everything I want to say, not sharing the silence.
I have to tell you how much I need you,
How much I love you.
So lets keep dreaming,
Sing, dance and talk, and stay alive...

-27 october 2007

Friday, 19 October 2007

Words

I'm the type of girl who'll burst out laughing for something that happened inside my head or centuries ago.
I'm the type of girl who'll cry looking at the sky or the rain.
I'm the type of girl you can love or hate, either way I will still like you or maybe even admire you.
I'm the type of girl you can't stand and would want to strangle at any given instant, but I'm still here, annoying the living daylights out of you.
I'm the type of girl who'll never stop loving you, even if you stop loving me.
I'm the type of girl who will be the only one standing with my arms spread open in the middle of Brigade Road.
I'm the type of girl who will walk on the divider of the road just for the fun of it.
I'm the type of girl who can be fussy and calm at the same time.
I'm the type of girl who loves talking to ramdom and strange people, and I think I like that best about me.
I'm the type of girl who will talk to bartenders even if I'm not drunk and I do end up knowing more about him than he does of me.
I'm the type of girl who can get drunk on air and music alone.
I'm the type of girl who was a fanatic drinker of alchohol and is not anymore.
I'm the type of girl who finds bubbles and colours fasinating.

I'm the type of girl who can be fasinated.
I'm the type of girl we refer to as a romantic, I can find romance in a cigarette.
I'm the type of girl who loves and hates.

I'm pretty much in love with everything and hate it at the same time.
By everything I do mean EVERYTHING.
I've found sudden liking to the way paper feels in my hand.

I'm the girl you can count on to be there for you, even if I hate your guts and would rather bury you as deep as possible.
I'm the type of girl who means it when I say "I will be here for you."
I'm the type of girl who's just plain "bizzare" and I believe weird is a compliment.

Kate and me are bizzare. Are you?

I'm the type of girl who wants to know everything there is to know.
Knowledge is power.
I'm the type of girl who says the above and still refuses to read the newpaper, and relies on word of mouth.
I'm the type of girl who wats to be your friend, be the one you can lean on. So what if you are a stranger?!

"I'm the type of girl who will make sure you know what I'm saying even if I don't.
I'm the type of girl who wants to be in the middle of it all, among people.
I'm the type of girl who wants you to take a journey with me, though you and I both will have no clue about this journey." ((quoting Kate))

I'm the type of girl who wants it all and wants nothing at all.
I'm the type of girl who's contradictory most of the times, but I still make sense.
I'm the type of girl who has been in love 3 times and close to it many times.
I'm the type of girl who likes to make everyone happy, give them that warm-fuzzy-feeling on the inside.
I'm the type of girl who takes friends as family.
I'm the type of girl who can chase people away from me.
I'm the type of girl who can make friends anywhere.

I'm the type of girl who wants to fly, literally, like superman.
I'm the type of girl who can't swim and is afraid of drowning, yet loves the water.

I'm the type of girl who wants to travel the world and meet many more bizzare people.

I'm the type of girl who loves to get lost in the world of books and the world of Shakespeare.
I'm the type of girl who loves you, even though I don't know you.

I'm the type of girl who has a lot to say, but I always forget what I want to say or don't know how to say it.
I'm the type of girl who is forgetfull and yet never forgets. Women never forget!

"There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how" Oasis, Wonderwall

I'm the type of girl who dislikes anything that is incomplete, though there are rare exceptions.

I'm the type of girl who's submerged in the world of music and this is the best sort of drowning.
I'm the type of girl who's soaring in the sky of words and still has nothing to say on certain occasions.
I'm the type of girl who's sentimental and practical.

I'm the type of girl who is very moody. It doesn't really bother me. Though this can spoil your mood, so I try to not show you the colours in my head.

I'm the type of girl who's here, just like you, in pain, with hope in my skin.

I'm the type of girl who's here, trying to give you a glimpse into my world.

Can you see me now??
For the crazy-bizzare-loving-sentimental-talkative girl that I am?

Tuesday, 16 October 2007

Poetry For Thought

title: her and me

Slow down,
Its raining still,
Lets dance some more.

She stood, arms spread open,
Her lips swollen with smiles,
Her hair curled up with the drops.

Her eyes screaming,
Her mouth singing,
Her hand in mine.

Lets dance some more,
Lets rejoice some more,
Just for a moment longer.

Just for a lifetime longer,
Lets sway with the wind,
And forget it all.

Her grace echos through,
Her laughter sings on,
The rain washes it all.

Dry those tears,
And dance away that pain,
Just for a moment longer.

Slow down, slow down,
Its raining still,
Lets dance some more.

-16 oct 2007

Monday, 8 October 2007

Realise..

She looked straight into my eyes and said "Abandon that ship!!", metaphorically of course, for I've never been on a ship!

Humour aside, she was right. I had to abandon this ship. I had to abandon everyone on it!

Then I thought, we human beings have the capacity to feel and emote. To build relationships and make them work. Then, like all good things, they come to an end. And somewhere in that emotional brain of ours we know that and secretly prepare ourselves. When the moment presents itself we feel like what George Bernard Shaw says (look over to the left), when your heart is broken and all your boats are burnt, nothing matters anymore. And like he says, peace just doesn't follow this drowned boat, not that easily. There is an extreme sensation of loss at first, then followed by pain and loss, then anger...then maybe peace. I say maybe only beacuse, there could be more emotions between loss and peace, don't you think?! And peace is usually the abandonment and the final acceptance of the situation. It can never be the same. He will never think of you the same, and she will never love you the same. This is peace. Acceptance and onward movement to the future, bright or dull.

What what if he could? And what if she still does love you the same?

What if....??

It just stays in those two words...WHAT IF.....

We all make mistakes and the two good things that come out of a mistake are: experience of the situation and the second one is (this is something like a boon) the realization that it was a mistake. We will try harder now not to make the same mistake, this thought driven mostly because of the realization than the experience. For the realization finally showed you how you hurt the person or the relationship. And you can never let yourself do that again, can you?

And it is now that I realise.......

Friday, 5 October 2007

Poetry For Thought

Title:Focus

Bordering the lines of sanity,
Cruising the skies of haze,
Humming the notes of a plea,
Sliding the sounds of a melody.
Utterly weak and strong,
Helplessly silent,
Hopelessly in love with the world,
Inconsistently moving on.
Free falling through reality,
Savouring every scent,
As if tomorrow is unreal,
Its something close to vitality.
Hold her and kiss her,
With closed eyes hold her still,
At peace behind those tired eyes,
All these words are now, just a blur.

- 5 oct 2007
5:29pm