ta-daa

it has been a long time.
new job. new love. new heartache.

people who know me might just not agree with the heartache; but they will with the new love.
seems like i've fallen for, fallen flat on my face, had a short crush, a long infatuation, an ex lover, a new lover all packed up in one day. but that's the joke that has formed out of it all. it doesn't matter though, because i know i love love. and i don't think i want to change that. :)

so i love you.
do you know what i'm thinking when i kiss your lips?
do you know that i smile?
do you ever stop to think for once how my emotions function?

not a player. yet. i just fall for the moment i guess.

very random, yet here it is on the internet to be judged.

literally thoughts. someone asked me one day if i have a blog. when i said yes, i was asked if it is one of those sappy "my thoughts" type blog, where i'd open up up about literally anything. and i smiled and said, yes of course it is.

and if this rant of mine has made you think, feel, want, then that's all that matters.

take the plunge. you got one life. and when you meet someone that means a lot, someone you know can make you take the leap of faith, you'll know. until then, don't be afraid to fall for someone, but know what you want before you plunge into their lives. know what you feel for them/him/her :) and never hide it. we all look for the same thing at the end of the road. there may be no light there, but there sure will be someone you love waiting. and with the friends i have made along they way, i know i won't be alone...

“So many fail because they don't get started - they don't go. They don't overcome inertia. They don't begin.”
W. Clement Stone
to all the people who took that first step, the rest is going to be easy. this is only the beginning

hello

hello world.

so it has been a while.
so i found a lot of good music. made new friends. made new changes.
but the old ones remain the same. no change.
ah. what to do.

anyway. i need to move. soon.
and i remember writing here about not wanting to move last time.
but this time. it. is. desperation.

so people are turning older.
making decisions.
moving on. hopefully.
discovery also happened somewhere.

what is going on?
tell me a story.
something about your day?

did you see a cat?
a lizard?
some one sent you flowers?

ah. ok.
i will update more often. with thoughts.

see you soon.

Poetry for thought - and then - hello

title: Comma

and i fall,
into your arms,
and into your lips,
sinking deeper,
smiling wider,
watching you,
watching you be shy,
watching you try,
slowly, sometimes slower,
your eyes twinkle ,
sometimes,
sometimes when i kiss you,
sometimes when i run my fingers across your skin,
and i see you smile,
i see you smile, surprised,
surprised at what you can be,
surprised what i can be around you,
simple. it is so simple,
there is no name,
there is no song,
there is no love,
there is company,
there is laugh,
there is conversation,
there is kisses,
there is silence, sometimes,
so what are you doing now,
dreaming a little?
being a little less shy?
"Now that she’s back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation,"
so can we kiss agian?
yes, of course.
i want to play you song,
before this is over,
before we have names,
tagging everything we do and say,
so now, i will play my guitar,
practice a little, sing a lot more,
and then...
ok so i will
blog about you,
talk to you,
watch you,
kiss you.
what else can i do?

10 May 2011

Poetry for Thought

Title: Musically challenged.
Your eyes upon me, I feel like an ice cube in the sun.
The world seems unworthy when I am around you.
You make me feel like I am in a bubble with just you.
All the sounds are just a haze.
My knees go weak.
Time stands still.
I lose my ground.
Stop encouraging me.
Tell your eyes not to look at me.
The world seems never ending in your eyes.
Glittering with joy, inquisitive, leading me on.
Tell those lips not to smile at me.
We kiss and I want to fall apart into your arms.
Your breath, your lips, your tongue playing games with me.
My fingers yearn to undress you slowly, under a starry sky.
Time stops when our eyes meet.
Your gaze lingers on my skin when you walk away.
You make me want to serenade you,
But around you, I feel musically challenged.

poetry for thought

title: inspiration..... ?

and then it starts again,
words don't find mediums,
kisses don't find lips,
hands don't touch.

head spins,
rains stop,
clarity is blurred,
inspiration..... ?

fly away,
swim away,
escape,
try. try.

still life,
photographs,
typing, typing,
where are the conversations?

i want a flood,
a hurricane maybe,
tempest as they used to say,
inspiration..... ?

boo. hoo.
its a standstill.

clarity, maybe,
and then life takes over..

you and me

hey you,

how are you? its been a while..hope all is good at your end.
i miss you so very much. suddenly feel so very lost.
i never was as close as want/ed to be, yet i feel so very lost without you.
without your whispers, without you.

there was a hail storm today. and i thought of you, it was a purple sky at the storm's end.

how is she? and is he planning to be married soon?
are you.....?

i want to hug you. hold you for a while.
kiss your neck, your lips.

you are there and i am here.

have you heard this song? i can't stop playing it over and over again...
"and i can barely look at you, and every single time i do, i know that i can make it any where away from here"

do you ever think of me? am i just a moment that has already passed you by?

i miss you.
i really do.
"to think i might not see those eyes, makes it so hard not to cry, and as we say our long goodbyes, i nearly do"

i did. the day you said you were leaving i did. i did when u held me.
i did when you spoke to me, i do.. i sometimes still do..

i do miss you. i know i have already said it. but saying it over and over might make you listen...maybe.

do you even listen to me? most of the time i am just a background score.
just a passing moment.

i wish you could see the night sky from my window.
its purple sometimes.. your favourite colour.

love,
me

new, maybe

heart break season it seems to be.
it rains. drizzles. green.
clock ticks.
time stops.
the room stays still.
looks the same, smells the same.
yet everything is different.
not new, but different.
feels like the blood from the body is slowly being drained.
drained.
mind slips away.
another day, not new, but different.
its all the same, but the heart feels heavier.
forgotten the way out.
just a routine, just a moment, just..

you and me.
me and you.
what do we do?