That phone call, one phone call, makes me rethink it all.
What I planned to do in a few days, has already been done, by someone I care about.
Do I still want to do it?! I don't see what has been done to be a mistake. Though I must hate him for it....maybe its because I see and feel what he went through, going through.
The question remains, will I go through with it???
Maybe not, for I don't want to. Yet, the urge is unbearable.
Everything has crumbled down...but I feel at peace, hurt, but at peace.
"Crazy skies all wild above me now
Winter howling at my face
And everything I held so dear
Disappeared without a trace"-Sail Away, David Gray
You can't make this easier on me.
Maybe its "software overload"...
Maybe its the lies...the betrayal...and the end..
Maybe its nothing, and I'm just "making myself miserable"...
Or maybe...maybe.....its the pain I going through for the life I tried giving, more than living...
Or maybe I'm just dazed, and these words are part of a dream........